The Incomparable Whitney Elizabeth Houston

As I sit here thinking of the impact Ms.Houston had on my life, it makes it even more difficult to believe she is no longer with us. We were together when I got my first boyfriend (The Greatest Love of All) and we were together when he broke my heart ( Where do Broken Hearts go).  More boyfriends came and went, but we remained together.

My first love the one I was (Saving All My Love)for, came I thought  and told him repeatedly I would (Always Love You), He too would join the ranks of boyfriends past. Our friendship remained intact, when you met the man you would call the Greatest Love of All, I didn't understand, but I supported your decision. I felt in my soul he was not right for you. Who am I to say that, so I stood in the gap for you my sister my friend. Prayers and belief that you would be fine, and this too would pass.

As I watched the world around me crumble from drugs, life as I knew it changed love ones lost and my childhood stolen. I understood completely your fight , your battle, your resilience. When you said you were fine, and no one really knew you. I knew all to well what that meant. I prayed for you as I prayed for my loved one and myself. I hope that for you as I hoped for her, that you both would get up dust your knees off and prove to be the strong women I knew you to be.

The day I heard of your comeback, I believed and I prayed that the time had come, for you to reclaim your place in this universe. Not only as the voice, but as the child of God you had shown us you were many times before. It was difficult peering threw the mess showing up knowing all to well that the battle was not over. You put on a good face, as you had done many time before and stepped into the limelight. No matter what you sang, how you sang, I saw the triumph you had made, I saw through what you showed the world. I knew it very well, because I saw it many times on her.

I asked God to hold you both, cradle you in his arms protect and keep you. God Bless you Whitney, you are safe free and home.

No two journeys are alike, many can say what they would do different and what they wouldn't allow to happen to them. In my life I have seem many things fought many battles. The one thing I know to be true, God is God alone. In my own power I am nothing, through Christ Jesus I have my being. I wont judge your journey, so don't judge mine.

If we take a moment and look inward, heal our own hearts be true to self, the healing for those around us would come without effort. If you happen to stop by this blog, be it a fan of Whitney's or not. If you are someone that has been touched by adversity, I am sure you will understand. I pray you strength in our Lord Jesus, I stand in agreement that you are strong, you are the head not the tail above not beneath. You are more then a conqueror through Jesus Christ who loves you.

God Bless. Never stop believing in you!!

I can't Find the words!

I don't know what happened, but I can't find the words, the strength, or my inspiration to put words on the page. Since I have immersed myself in my writing, and learned that a true writer not only writes when she/he is inspired, but when they are serious about their craft. With that said I have come to be mindful of stating I am not inspired to write.

AHG!! I am not inspired! After my first chapter critique I was excited, but became overwhelmed by the small amount of editing. I now understand why you shouldn't get a critique before you are finished with your novel. Because you would never finish:). I loved all the suggestion my critique partner made, and was eager to make them. However all that I learned was so great, and helped me to grow as a writer. It made me look at how to write differently, which of course in essence changes how I view my narrative.

I sat down to make the changes and before I could control it I wanted to change the entire book. Of course this frustrated me, because it would be like the 5th time I have changed this story. The thought of starting over is to much for me to process, considering I do have another job, family and other things I enjoy doing.

I guess I am at the point of "what am I doing", and I have no answers.I have decided to put the book down for a couple of months, sort through some personal issues, and maybe return with a clear head. I love the story I envision, but the task of getting it out of my head and onto the paper has proven to be daunting. The Lesson here is, finish the book before getting it critiqued, proof reading or editing. I think you should just put the entire idea down on paper, before you  proof it, and second guess yourself. 5th guess, in my case.

I think I need to take my critique partners advice and come back with fresh eyes. Am I preaching to the choir? Has this happened to you? I would love to hear your views and/or experiences. Even if you are just passing by today comments are free, as well as clicking on the Join this blog link

What to do??? Me venting

I started my MS about a year ago maybe 1 1/2 years. I got really serious about 6 months ago, and was half way completed with it when I decided to revise and I am now back at square one. I had my first chapter critiqued and I was very excited about it, and thought it gave me the push I needed to complete my last chapters.

I was wrong, now I am revising again. My problem is each time I learn something new I revise and so now I am stuck with only the 10 chapters I had originally ( with revisions) I have about 400 pages of ..wtfrock!!! I feel like I am going in circles and I am no where close to finishing. I know my MC but I am not attached to anyone in the MS, because they keep changing.

Today's post was just me venting, I am going to push through this madness and finish my last chapters so that I can move on to editing.

Sign
Hopeless in Florida

MS,YA,MG.....OMG!

There is so much I have to learn about writers lingo (is this spelled right?:)). I thought I was ready for my first critique, boy was I wrong. When I got Angie's email about the changes I needed to make I was ecstatic finally the POV of a fellow YA Fantasy author. Everything she said was right on the money and charged me up with new ideas.
Then, I opened the file of the original documents with all her corrections...wonk, wonk, wonk I was so embarrassed and  LOL at myself. I clearly thought write the book then get it critique (the story not the grammer. how can you have one without the other...IDK :O), I never polished the MS as Angie's puts it. What was I thinking you ask, IDK,I was so anxious to get someone's perspective as I had exhausted all of my families POV, and no one understood how my MC could do the things I had written about. That's because they don't read or particularly like YA fantasy. This is why it's a good idea to have a critique partner in your genre.

Lesson here, edit until it almost shine, before you send it off for critique.Learn lingo. Like I said if your are looking for expertise in writing your first novel, you won't find it here. If you want to follow the journey of a beginner and her pitfalls...Welcome my friend:)  

The Day Sapphire was Born!!

Sitting with my laptop on the bed thinking how will she tell them about her gifts who can she turn to. hours passed words turned to sentences, turned to paragraphs. Still I didn't know what her problem was and who was the cause of it. I talked to others close to her, trying to imagine how they would help her, or give her support. I can feel she is scared lonely, but brave and strong at the same time, but I don't know her.

Still a stranger to me, although I have guided her for a year now, and suddenly it was clear, Sapphire introduced herself to me, and I finally knew where we were going together , how I could help her solve her problems. How together we could get rid of the one who was causing so much pain.

This is when Sapphire was born, and her voice became louder in my head telling me her thoughts and feelings. I soon hope to share her with the world.

I am hoping soon to add excerpts from my book on the blog, but I am a long way from that. I had my first critique of the first chapter done by the fabulous Angie Sandro. I was nervous, excited, and surprised it wasn't as bad as I thought.
I know I don't have many followers, but maybe there are some passer bys, so stop over and check out Angie's blog here she is awesome.

Have you ever felt like....

When I first had the idea for my first novel I was just thinking of something off the top of my head. I love science and history however it wasn't the first thing I wanted to write about or the second or third for that matter. Anyway I had this idea and I began to shape the main character of my book, and what the plot of my story would be. Soon after I put my ideas on paper and mapped out a way to make it plausible believable and yet still keep it's mystic.

The idea was clear in my mind, ...almost. I put the book down for a few months when I started at it again, I had forgotten some of my details, and I couldn't find my notes. I keep lots of notebooks and journals and loose paper I just jot things down on from time to time. I knew I would find it, it was only a matter of time.

I decided to look deeper into my idea... you know research. To my surprise there was a name for my idea and an even greater surprise there were many books on it and series, children's books video games etc...
I was floored but, nonetheless I moved forward, giving myself the excuse that there is nothing new under the sun. Right?!


I kept writing and getting more and more excited about my novel. Every now and then I do a little research like when I was trying to come up with a title or cross referencing words for help. Each time I see other books resembling mine, to make matters worse the story seemed like a mirror image. You know female hiding a secret that only she can use to save the world..heard it a million times right. I know, but somehow it bothered me and provoked me to write this post.

At this moment I have no followers on this blog, but if you happen across it and read this post tell me I'm right to keep writing and that there are a lot of books with similarities. Writing this post has been therapeutic and has encouraged me to keep writing.

Side note my book seems to have lost a lot of it's mystic, looking more like reality which is certainly not my goal. It's my plan to revise a little and get back to my original idea, and hope that I grow an audience that likes my novel and hopefully I don't get sued in the process...

Intro

Hello and welcome to my newly authored never been published and hope to be a bestseller little corner. I am excited to be writing my first book and even more excited to share it with anyone who will listen. I have driven my family crazy with things like, "please read this" and "what do you think is this to much" or give me your honest opinion".

Some authors may say never share your book until it's a finished work, or be careful who you share it with. For me anyone in my family who'll read I will share it with. It's funny that as much as I love reading it's one of my passions, it was surprising to me that not many people in my circle are readers. They are more I'll wait for the movie type of people. How ever did we make it together all these years?

I am not quite ready to share my first book with the world, however since starting on this journey I find that sometimes a short story will hit me and these are the types of things I will share on this blog. Along with my progress on my book. If you are looking for tips on how to write your first novel, or how to become an published author or anything of that nature, THIS IS NOT THE BLOG FOR YOU...

I am new to this and loving every step as my knowledge on the matter grows I will surely share it with you and anyone who will listen for that matter. Thanks for joining me here, and please share my blog with other writing enthusiast that you know that may find my little corner interesting. I hope to hold your attention talk to you again real soon!